I'm not a bad person
Just an empty one.

Irgendjemand versuchte mir zu sagen, ich solle Momente finden, die im Gedächtnis bleiben - daran arbeite ich noch

I shut my eyes -
in order to see
(It's so hard to see clearly)

Cause all of the stars have faded away
Just try not to worry, you'll see them some day
Take what you need and be on your way
And stop crying your heart out

Merry Christmas

And with this Christmas wish is missed
The point I could convey
If only I could find the words to say to let You know how much You've touched my life
Because here is where You're finding me, in the exact same place as New Year's eve
And from a lack of my persistency
We're less than half as close as I want to be

And the first time
That You opened Your eyes did You realize that You would be my Savior?
And the first breath that left Your lips
Did You know that it would change this world forever?

And so this Christmas I'll compare the things I felt in prior years
To what this midnight made so clear
That You have come to meet me here

To look back and think that
This baby would one day save me
In the hope that what You did
That you were born so I might [ really ]live
To look back and think that
This baby would one day save me

And I, I celebrate the day
That You were born to die
So I could one day pray for You to save my life ♥

Take me back to the start

Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard

Your life is defined by its opportunities... even the ones you miss.

I get up
I go to school
Go to work come home
Go to bed
Monday
Tuesday
Wednesday
Everyday
Always the same

I eat but I don't taste it
Breathe but can't catch my breath
I touch but there's no feeling
Only nothingness

A black veil
In my eyes
Makes the world so dim
I barely see
The volume
Is turned down
Lips move but I can't
Hear them speak

Nach meiner Meinung ist es nie zu spät, der zu sein, der man sein will.

Es gibt keine zeitliche Begrenzung.

Fang damit an, wann du willst.
Du kannst dich ändern oder so bleiben wie du bist.

Es gibt keine Regel.

Du kannst das Beste daraus machen oder das Schlechteste.
Ich hoffe du machst das Beste daraus.

Ich hoffe du siehst erstaunliche Dinge.

Ich hoffe du erlebst Gefühle wie nie zuvor.

Ich hoffe du begegnest Menschen, die die Welt anders sehen als du.

Ich hoffe du lebst ein Leben, auf das du stolz sein kannst.

Und wenn es nicht so ist, dann hoffe ich du reißt dich zusammen und fängst nochmal von vorne an

seltsamer Fall

Das Leben besteht aus Gelegenheiten, auch aus denen, die wir verpassen.

Es ist uns bestimmt, dass wir Menschen verlieren, die wir lieben.
Woher sollten wir sonst wissen, wie wichtig sie für uns sind?

Jeder Mensch fühlt sich mal anders, mal so, dann
wieder so. Aber wir gehen alle in die selbe Richtung.
Nur auf verschiedenen Wegen.

Zeit ist bedeutungslos.
Liebe ist grenzenlos

Wenn ich nich ich wäre

 

 

 

Lips move
But I can't hear them speak

I never meant to cause you trouble
I never meant to do you wrong
And I, well if i ever caused you trouble
Oh no, I never meant to do you harm...

...Forgive me.

If we gonna make this work
You gotta let me inside even though it hurts
Don't hide the broken parts that I need to see

You gotta love yourself if you
can ever love me

All this time I was wasting hoping you would come around
I've been giving out chances everytime
And all you do is let me down
And it's taking me this long
But I've figured you out
And you're thinking we will be fine again
But not this time around

You don't have to call
Anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don't wanna hurt anymore

And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you like I did before
You're not sorry
No

Looking so innocent
I might believe you if I didn't know
Could've loved you all my life
If you hadn't left me waiting in the cold
And you got your share of secrets
And I'm tired of being last to know
And now you're asking me to listen
'Cause it worked each time before

You can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you like I did before
You're not sorry
No

You had me falling for you honey
And it never would've gone away
No
You used to shine so bright
But I watched all of it fade

Somewhere Only We Know

If you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go somewhere only we know?
Somewhere only we know

Oh simple thing where have you gone?
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

So if you have a  minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go somewhere only we know?
Somewhere only we know?

Teenage years

Teenage years


Expectations:

A big group of friends, sneaking out of the house, my first kiss, late nights under the stars, crying on my best friend’s shoulder, passing notes in class, going on adventures, getting out of my town, campfires, telling secrets, feeling what it’s like to fall in love for the first time, roadtrips, dance parties, driving around, getting lost, endless laughter, happiest years of my life.

Reality:

Feeling lonely, staying in, late nights studying for that math test, waking up early, tiredness, school all day and homework all night, being stressed out, college applications, trapped in a town I hate, feeling nothing remotely close to love, keeping it all bottled up, crying far too often, spending too much time on the internet, waiting for the better years to come.

Christmas night

Another fight

Tears we cried, a flood
Got all kinds of poison in

Of poison in my blood

When you're still waiting for the snow to fall
It doesn't really feel like Christmas at all

I look in your direction
But you pay me no attention, do you?
I know you don't listen to me
Cause you say you see straight through me, don't you?

Don't you shiver?
Don't you shiver?

You know how much I need you
But you never even see me, do you?
And is this my final chance of getting you?