missing

soliloquy

I know what's best for me
but I want you instead

I'll keep on wasting all my time

But now I've got to move on and be who I am
I just don't belong here
I hope you understand
We might find a place in this world someday
but at least for now

I gotta got my own way

Take me or leave me... 'cause I can let go.

I'm still not breaking
It's getting so cold
Waiting for reasons to unfold

The world is so jaded

It's tainted my view
But I just can't go on chasing you

Words without faith
Hearts without love
The tears on your face just don't pay off

The times they are changing
Not everything's gold
Take me or leave me
'Cause I can let go

Something is fading

You're pulling away
Are we too soon, am I too late?

As all my illusions
They crash to the ground
Something inside me
Keeps holding on somehow
I’m still a believer
Love’s worth fighting for
I don’t want to say goodbye

But I want more, yes I want more

happiness makes you cry

Do you realize - that you have the most beautiful face?
Do you realize - we're floating in space?
Do you realize - that happiness makes you cry?
Do you realize - that everyone you know someday will die..?

And instead of saying all of your goodbyes
Let them know you realize that life goes fast
It's hard to make the good things last
You realize the sun don' go down
It's just an illusion caused by the world spinning round...

So I look in your direction,
But you pay me no attention, do you?

I know you don't listen to me,
'Cause you say you sse straight through me, don't you?

But on and on from the moment I wake to the moment I sleep
I'll be there by your side
Just you try to stop me
I'll be waiting in line
Just to see if you care..

And I want you to know, that you'll aways get your way
And I wanted to say

Don't you shiver?
Don't you shiver?
Shiver

I'll always be waiting for you
So you know how much I need you
But you never even see me, do you?
And is this my final chance of getting you?

I'll always be waiting
I'll always be waiting for you
for you

And it's you I see
But you don't see me
And it's you I hear
So loud and so clear

And I'll always be waiting for you

So I look in your direction but you pay me no attention

And you know how much I need you
But you never even see me...

Once again I'm home alone
Tears running from my eyes
And you're on the outside

Everyday same old thing
So I'm still feeling pain
Never had real love before

I know better but I can't help it

How do you heal a heart
That can't feel?
It's broken

I've been living this way so long
I don't know the difference

I promise you I will learn from my mistakes

When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When  you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

When the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

When you're too love to let it go
But if you never try, you'll never know
just what's your worth

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Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace

...

So far away from knowing where I am going
I am trying hard to find out who I am
They all see that I don't know what I am doing
I say they don't hardly understand

Why can't they remember
What I will never forget?
How these dreams come undone
When you're young

You give what you give cause they make you
Trapped inside a place that won't take you
And they want you to be what they make you

It's already over and done
When you're young

Everything seems perfect
Everything's okay
And it will all get better now
At least that's what they say

But I don't see it coming

You give what you give cause they make you
Trapped inside a place that won't take you
And they want you to be what they make you

It's already over and done
When you're young

Days really just seem longer
They say it's better this way
I hope one day I am stronger than I feel
And I hope it feels different than today


Why can't they remember

What I will never forget?
How these dreams come undone
When you're young

...

I walk a lonely road

The only one that I have ever known

Don't know where it goes

But it's home to me and I walk alone

I'm the only one and I walk alone

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there would find me

'Till then I walk alone

Check my vital signs to know I'm still alive
And I walk alone